Sunday, July 11, 2010

This Morning

I woke up this Sunday morning, feeling very heavy burdened.
And I even began a quick draft of a post before I left
for church.
I usually am a very Cheerful, Positive,Encouraging person..
And when I woke up this morning battling Satan with
all this feelings of worry and disappointment, I couldnt
wait to get to church for some relief, cause I knew he couldnt follow me
in there..(lol)
See I had battled with Satan, ( The Chump, as I like to call him) over
the last couple of years, in regards to allowing him to steal my Joy.
And of course God gives me the strength and the ability to do that.
so much that I almost felt "Bad" this morning for feeling bad ..
"The Chump" is a sneaky little snake. I was feeling "Prideful" in my
usual attitude and outlook on life, and feeling how hypocritical in myself
and thinking " How can be a Godly Encouragement to people when I
cant see encouragement in my own life.."
So any way.. off to church I go, still feeling a bit angry and gloomy,
but needing refreshed by Gods word, and some heavy duty Worship...
And I hear in the service that my long time girlfriend, who has been
battling cancer, is having brain surgery on Wednesday to try and remove
a large tumor . And knowing the worries she must be going through
just made me put things into perspective. I was here worrying about
my husbands job, or lack there of. Envious of friends going on fun
vacations, when Im concerned about grocery's and gas money.
When she is wondering if she will see the face of her precious grandson
ever again after the surgery.
She is a WONDERFUL child of God,,and I have NO doubt that she will
come through this surgery, and glorify God every step of the way..
And I will leave my worry's at the feet of Jesus and quote this scripture
all week long.....

Matthew 6:25-26
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Forgive me Lord for my moments of doubt..


Susan said...

Karen, we must have been on the same page this morning. I have felt the same way this summer about friends going on vacations and doing lots of fun things with their families. I am a single mom and a teacher... my summer money is going fast. There have been several moments that I am consumed with worry about how I'm going to make it until my next paycheck at the end of August, then I remember those verses that you posted. :)

Heather's Blog-o-rama said...

HI Karen, I've definitely been here too...and you know what I can totally identity with not being able to go on vacations because I have to think about groceries and gas money. My dad and I get creative with ways to have fun that don't cost alot...Anyway, I don't want to go off topic too much :) :) this was a great post!!! Love and hugs, Heather :) :)

Donnetta said...

I saw a tiny bird in my yard just this last week and these verses came to mind. I reminded myself that if He was mindful of that very tiny bird, how much more mindful He must be of me.

Thanks for your honesty in this post and sharing this with us. Thank you for the challenge to put things into perspective, and for the reminder that indeed... He is ever so aware and mindful... of us, of me.

Trusting things going well with your friends surgery this week!